when dealing with
the kind
who uses the f word.
yes,
the most destructive, absurd
and ambiguous of words:
f for forever.
forever doesn't even count
as a word - the explanation for it
is just too obscure,
and the need for its clarification
has always been underrated.
somehow the promisor and promisee
of this "forever-ness"
hardly ever bother to
reconcile their ideas
of what the intention
behind this notion of "forever-ness"
truly is.
they take for this for granted
and
all hell breaks loose when
the inevitable oxymoron happens -
forever, ends.
forever, really is,
more of a suggestion,
or like, a hope,
just like some concept we throw in
to romanticise the otherwise
pretty mundane, and tragically difficult
reality.
there are some inherent problems
with this word that tries
to mean 'TILL THE END',
since
everyone has their own mental time lines,
so by end, do we mean
end of today,
end of next month,
end of your earthly existence,
end of your spiritual existence,
end of the moment till i still love you...
please don't give me end of time, because
when the heck is the end of time??
there are 2 generic categories
of users
1) Sincere but dumb:
they think they mean it, and due to
the lack of sufficient vocabulary
to express extreme attraction to
another party,
they resort, recklessly,
to using the f word.
they only realise that they
are incapable of living up to forever,
only when "forever", ends.
2) Intentionally deceitful but streetwise:
they find comfort in the ambiguity
and lack of contractual attachments to
the use of the word,
do it to gain temporary feelings of
affection and what nots.
they don't give excessive consideration
when deploying words like these,
since they have
no intention what so ever
to keep to it.
smart but screwed up people.
we were discussing about
marriage today
and it came down to
this:
the true test of love comes
when 2 people face the unromantic
day to day issues like
where to go for dinner,
who to pay the bills and which
tv channel to tune to.
it is not so much the forever-ness talks.
marriage is an instituition that
puts 2 people who
are/think they are/try to be
in love,
together
so that they can be virtually
around one another TOO much,
and at the same time
focus very hard on
not driving one another
insane with the disparities in lifestyle.
it is so easy to go wrong.
still, i am 20.
wish i didn't feel 47 and divorced.
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